Wednesday, March 9, 2011

अपने शहर को बदलते देखा है

मैंने अपने शहर को बदलते देखा है

तिराहे की चाय वाली टपरी को
अब कैफे कॉफ़ी डे से डरते देखा है

कराई-लईया की कच्ची दुकानों को
कैंडी शॉप के मर्तबानों में टूटते देखा है

मनिहारिन की चूड़ियों के रंगों को
फैन्सी बैंगल्स में बिखरते देखा है

आम की बगिया के पेड़ों को
कांच की ऊंचाइयों से कटते देखा है

चौक के चौराहे को
पुरानी गलियों से बिछड़ते देखा है

मकबरे की ढहती दीवारों पर
नए नामों को उभरते देखा है

इस शहर की अदाओं को
उन् शहरों की नुमाइश में पिछड़ते देखा है

एक शहर था
मैंने उस शहर में ख़ुद को, और
ख़ुद में उस शहर को गुज़रते देखा है
अपने शहर को बदलते देखा है...

25 comments:

  1. For HJ:

    'Apne Shaher Ko Badalte Dekha Hai'


    Maine apne shaher ko badalte dekha hai

    Tiraahe ki chai waali tapri ko
    Ab Cafe Coffee Day se darte dekha hai

    Karaai-laiyaa ki kachchi dukaanon ko
    Candy shop ke martbaanon mein toot-te dekha hai

    Manihaarin ki choodiyon ke rango ko
    Fancy bangles mein bikharte dekha hai

    Aam ki bagiyaa ke pedon ko
    Kaanch ki unchaaiyon se kat-te dekha hai

    Chowk ke chauraahe ko
    Puraani galiyon se bichhadte dekha hai

    Makbare ki dhehti deewaaron par
    Naye naamon ko ubharte dekha hai

    Iss shaher ki adaaon ko
    Unn shehron ki numaaish mein pichhadte dekha hai

    Ek shaher tha
    Main uss shaher mein khud ko, aur
    Khud mein uss shaher ko guzarte dekha hai
    Apne shaher ko badalte dekha hai...

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  2. Thanks again for the script change.

    Lovely! This made me nostalgic about a lot of things. Having read your writing for a while now, I am astounded by your grasp of Hindi and English alike. That’s pretty rare and makes me wonder what your day job is!

    Lately, I’ve been caught up in some work so haven’t been reading as much. But you were on a hiatus too, no?

    HJ

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  3. Nice writing, keep it going :)

    My immediate reaction...

    खुद को ट्रेन की खिड़की से झाँककर, प्लेटफार्म पर गरम तेल मे पकते समोसों पर ललचाते देखा था कभी...
    आज खुद को economy-class मे बाँसी और थंडे sandwich को सिर्फ acidity ना हो जाए, इसलिए खाते देखा है...

    इतवार को महाभारत ना छुट जाए इसलिए, पौ फ़टे उठकर, नहा धो कर, जल्दी से नाश्ता खतम कर, बाकी बच्चों से पहले, ज़मीन पर अपनी जगह पकडने को खुद को भागते देखा था कभी...
    आज खुद को चैनलों और सिरियल्स की भीड़ मे, कोई एहसास, कोई रंग, कोई सच्चाई ना पाकर, व्यर्थ ही सोफे पर pizza खाते, बेमतलब हि वक़्त काटते देखा है...

    मैने खुद को इस शहर के साथ, वक़्त की गली से गुज़रते देखा है...

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  4. सोचता हूँ कि देखा तो सबने है... बस नजर का फर्क़ है-- ज्यादातर हम लोग जरूरत से ज्यादा सरसरी निगाह से चीजों को देखने की आदत पाल लेते हैं.. वहीं जब अपनी परसेप्शन का चश्मा हटाकर उन्हीं चीजों को दुबारा देखें, तो ऐसा ही कुछ सांस लेता सा पन्नों पर उतर आता है..

    फर्क निगाह का ही तो है.. हमेशा की ही तरह कुछ और खूबसूरत सफ़्हों के लिये शुक्रिया..

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  5. बहुत ही संवेदनशील कविता ....मुझे लगता है की बदलाव तो स्वाभाविक है लेकिन इस कविता के सन्दर्भ में देखें तो हमारें शहरों की unique विशेषताएं फीकी पड़ते जा रही है ....कैफे काफ्फी डे की काफ्फी तो सभी शहरों में एक जैसा ही होगा लेकिन पटना के गलियों की दूधवाली चाय और दिल्ली की सर्दियों में बहार जा के अदरक वाली चाय पीने का जो मज़ा है वो किसी A .C रेस्तरां में कभी न मिले ...फिर भी आजकल के लोग इन्हें ज्यादा पसंद करते हैं!!

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  6. Very beautiful and heart touching!

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  7. @HJ: It was a conscious decision to write in Hindi. Maybe a resultant of a sub-conscious post-colonial angst, of which I became aware after I studied Literature in English at Delhi University. I realized I had started 'thinking' and 'praying' in English!

    Also, I grew up in the Hindi heartland; in a sleepy town called Faizabad, situated on the banks of river Sarayu; near the famous City of Nawabs - Lucknow. Hindi, Awadhi and Khadi Boli with a generous sprinkling of Urdu, were the Languages I had spoken and heard.

    I just happen to write. My fiance, Ankur has been a very positive influence over the last one year. It is due to him that I have started writing regularly :-).

    My day job? Actually, it is a day-night job. I am an actor. Have been on this particular assignment since November last year. On lucky days I work for 16 hours; on not-so-lucky ones, I work for 20! Hence the hiatus :-).

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  8. @Ghushe, Kartikeya, Siddhartha: Thanks for sharing those words and experiences :-).

    @Ravi: Thank you!:-)

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  9. Kitna sach likha hai,Keep it up!!!

    I Always appreciate your hardwork be it in acting or in writing.... :)

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  10. @Shweta: Thank you for the kind words :-).

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  11. Hello there.. I came across your blog spot as I was reading about you. I have been watching your show and love it! You are great as an actress and a writer.

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  12. @Anonymous: Oh! Is it? Thanks for visiting! It would be nice to know your name :-).

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  13. @ Nivedita..this anonymous person is Wahida. all the way from California.. and unfortunatley I don't have any of those profile set up and could only pick anonymous.

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  14. Hello Wahida! It is nice to see love and affection coming all the way from California! Thank you! :-)

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  15. Nivedita beautifull heart touching lyrics I became teary eyed while reading , I am sure all of us can relate to the lyrics, I really think the essence of this poem was that it was written in Hindi for I can not imagine if the impact would have been the same in english, I am so glad that you shared the information about your blog , prior to that I just knew what a fine actress you were , but had no idea that your pen is as powerfull and dignified

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  16. Hi Nivedita ji, Your lines are really beautiful. I guess u get this idea from an advertisement, sorry if i am wrong. Starting with same line but u completed in beautiful words. I guess i saw you somewhere few year back in Delhi University area. i was also watching ur TV serial when it was started. But unfortunately these days i don't get time to see it because of my office hectic schedule. But everybody is so good in that serial. Especially ur grandmother she is so lovable. and I wish u best of luck for future.

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  17. Firstly, my apologies, I didn’t realize I was addressing a star! I’ve been following your blog for the better part of a year. And if I have the time-line correct stardom (and your engagement) happened somewhere in between. I have to say that the depth and quality of your writing has only improved over the duration.

    I can relate to the multiple language influences. I often get my Punjabi and Gujrati mixed up. But its good to have the liberty to fall back on different languages as a means of expression. It helps one appreciate the subtlety and depth associated with each language.

    All the best to you in your ‘day-night’ job and keep writing.

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  18. @Mamta and anonymous: Thank you for the kind words! :-)

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  19. @HJ: Arrey! Do not embarrass me! I am a simple girl who happens to be an actor:-).

    As you mention, we have been communicating here for the better part of a year now. I have a plethora of questions for you but I shall ask just a few keeping in mind that your privacy is not invaded. What is your name? What do you do?

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  20. May I ask what location in Faizabad this picture is of (for the poem)? It looks familiar to me, but I cannot place the location. Thank you. :o)

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  21. @Neha: Its the 'Gulaab Baadi', the royal rose garden of the Nawab and Bahu Begum :-).

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  22. wow Nivedita .....your poetry has depth, amazing and
    beautiful

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  23. Its Awesome. Nivedita!!!

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  24. It's so expressive & the use of words are so appropriate that sometimes I wonder if it's the same quite,shy & slightly introvert Nivedita who has written these poems.Might be a fact that you open up with closed ones only. By the way,Congrats for your life-partner.Best wishes for your future!

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